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This week has been quite stressful, I don’t know why but I think I miss college. I prefer the structure, there seems to be so much distraction while I’m trying to work at home.
When I emailed Steve for this week’s Reading Week task my stomach sank as I found out it was to prepare a presentation on s specific subject that I had very little knowledge about. I don’t know what makes me more nervous, the whole group doing basically the same presentation on a very similar subject or the fact that we are straight into it on Monday morning.
At first when I was doing my research I found it difficult to find any useful information, but today It seems to be easier to find. I think the night to think about the task had helped; it hasn’t however eased off any of my nerves.
When doing research I have found out a few astonishing facts that I would never have thought possible such as what colour has to do with suicide.
Through school I was quite heavily bullied and lost any self-confidence that I had. The thought of me standing in front of a group of people with their eyes on me for five minutes makes me want to flee the country to be honest. I don’t, however want this to be seen as an excuse or a moan, but I want to see it as a personal goal, my confidence can only get better and this is something that, if done regularly could help. It will also prepare me for the outside world.
I think it would have been a good idea to use Monday morning as a seminar session, both to get to know our new group and to let our colleagues see our presentations before we dive in and make fools of our self. There is still this thing in the back of my head that says its wrong. I don’t know why but it is always there! Like, still I am feeling very anxious about “That’s the Plan” there is something niggling at me in my head saying I have gone majorly wrong and have referred. Saying that though I was like that for months on my foundation art when my final grade was coming up; thankfully I passed that!
Things I included in my presentation include: the science behind colour, The culture behind colour, the culture involved in the colour green, Why the understanding of culture is vital for designers, Religion and culture, some facts around green, global warming.
9 comments:
I know exactly what you mean about getting distracted, I didn’t think I could be distracted as easily as I was.
I actually thought you were quite a confident person and I’m sorry to hear you got bullied, I know what it’s like.
I’m glad to see that you’re looking at the positive things that will come out of this presentation and have set those personal goals. They should help you to do the presentation.
Reading that list I’m not sure if you can fit all that into a 5 minute presentation! But if you can I’m sure looking forwards to seeing your presentation it sounds very interesting.
Firstly I'd like to congratulate you on the clarity and content of your blog. As usual it contains a lot of interesting information about your thinking, which has added to my own thinking, so thanks.
Equally I agree with Greg about your confidence. You've obviously come along way and I always enjoy your exuberant comments and animated presence in class.
So keep up the good work and i look forward to hearing your talk on Monday.
I totally agree with you on wanting a seminar session before we do our presentations. At the minute I feel like I'm being thrown in at the deep end!
I think we are all going to be nervous about doing our first presentation, as we all don’t want to make a bad job of it.
I think I will deal with it as if I am playing a game of snooker, just concentrating on the job at hand. Maybe you could try a technique like that?
Firstly, I usually experience the same problems as you when working at home... too many distractions! TV, Xbox, Internet, etc. It's all so tempting.
However, this week I've seemed to have no problems with this. I'm not sure what's been different to be honest, so I can't offer any advice, but I think it's to do with my frame of mind. It always helps to be focused and committed to what you're doing, as well as being interested.
I think Steve made a good point in his email earlier today (Thursday) about the presentations- EVERYONE will be hoping you do well and will be encouraging you.
It's our first presentation on the course so mistakes will be unavoidable I feel, but bear in mind that we're all in the same situation... no one will mind about mistakes, and people are probably hoping mistakes are made so the pressure isn't on to be perfect!
Date stamp and time zone test.
I think its a good idea that you have set out goals. And I'm sure that you will be fine in your presentation, I dont think that any one really wants to do the presentation but it will help us to get more confident and will make it easy for when we have to do more.
Hi Garry
I am sorry to hear of the problems you experienced during school, I can assure you that you will not have any problems like that on this course.
I wouldn't really say that you have much of a problem with confidence these days, as seams to be the general consensus of the class, and the issues of your past seam to be just that... in the past.
I have to differ my opinion to those posted. I feel that having the presentation is best off out the way on Monday. That way it could be seen as an ice breaker and really warm us up for the next term.
I'm looking forward to it :-)
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Shaun Bellis
My Journal
As Steve said to us in his lecture, being nervous is just a part of it; remember everyone else in the room will probably having similar feelings at that time. It is just something you have to deal with because you know it's going to happen, therefore you can prepare for it correctly and try your best to not let it affect you.
I know what you mean about prefering the structure of college, I two would've much prefered to of gone in both days, I think it would have enabled me to be more productive, but I've got things done anyways.
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